Perhaps Tomorrow

I can't decide where to go...I'm so afraid of where it will lead me.
Sigh...why is it that I'm so afraid of changes?

I knew it 10 months ago that our office will transfer to Cavite. All my friends keep on reminding me that I need to have a plan. Even my bosses advised me that if I have no plans of going to Cavite, then I should be looking for a new job as early as possible. But I ignored them saying that I have still lots of time to do so. But actually, I've been refusing to think about it...because I'm afraid...so afraid of changes...to make wrong decisions.

Perhaps tomorrow. I always tell that to myself. Perhaps tomorrow I already know what to want...that I can tell them what my decision is...until I ran out of time. Now I have to decide. Accept or decline the offer...to keep the people around me from hanging... and above of all, for me to have a direction.

For whatever reason, I really can't make-up my mind. Perhaps tomorrow, I can say to myself, this is what I will do...This is what I want. For now, maybe the safest for me is to go to Cavite. I don't know. I really don't... But maybe there I can grow ----slowly but safely...nevertheless, I will grow.